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maybe it would be better if i can live life alone ba?
i would ot implicate on others, cause problems and trouble for others.

people who is supposed to care, didn't care. people whom i didn expect they would care, actually cared and even to the extent that they had given up hope on me.
well, i dun blame them. just blame on myself for being too stubborn.
i dun like to bottle things up. but, sometimes, i know i have to do it.

really feel like going bck to the kind of life where i can cry anytime and anywhere i like. bottling things inside me and cry like nobody's business and cry myself to slp. because, i know when i wake up, i will feel better

some may ask, but why cry urself to slp? why can't i just go to slp?
well, my ans is, sometimes when i just lie on my bed and tries to slp, it's just somehow impossible to go to slp.
it's only when i tire myself out by crying, then can i fall asleep peacefully without anything running through my mind.

sometimes i really wish i can talk to someone about my problems. but in reality, i know i can't do that.

-Stay with me;
11:17:00 PM

haiz..
what are you doing to me? do you really mean wad you say?
words come out from your mouth..does it come from your heart as well?
i really doubt it.

i'm really trying very very hard to keep this relationship going. at times, you're really nice to me. i know it. but there are also times that you treat me as if i'm invisible.
what do you really want? why do you want to hang me up like that? sometimes you give me hope. and sometimes you just make me feel like i've made the wrong choice.
i seriously dunno what to do already.
just now i called you. and we couldn't even talk for 5 minutes. what's wrong?
you complain that i cannot spare time for you. but when i finally found time for you, you didn't want to go out with me.
Fine. you may say that it was too sudden. but i've alredy told you one day in advance.

sometimes you complain that we are drifting further and further away. but do you even make an effort to make the gap smaller? if this relationship is really like non-existent to you, why do you always want to hold on to it even though you may see no hope? seriously, i dunno what's on your mind. if you still want to be together, can you at least treat me like your girlfriend? if not, can you stop hanging me up there? giving me false hopes. if you love me no more, can you just end it once and for all and stop my pain? it is really hurting me alot. i bet you never know this.

i always try to sound happy even though when u say u wan to hang up after 4 minutes.
i really dunno what to say about our relationship already. i've reflected on our relationship on my part. but, have you ever really sit down and think seriously about this?

-Stay with me;
11:08:00 PM

hmm...these few days can finally have some time for myself..
school has been rather busy for this year..
and i can foresee that there will be more challenges coming up next year..
guess i really have to put in more effort in my studies next year and guarantee myself a place in a local uni..

well..everything happens in split second..
and i'm not sure of what i should be talking about over here...
did many stuff this yr..

for studies,
basically, its just studying..lectures, tutorials, consultations, remedials...
lolx...nothing much that's unique..
perhaps just for this visit to SMU few days ago ba...
SMU is a fun and cool place to study in i guess...
it doesn't really look like a university though...
but, lessons there can be quite interesting as it is conducted in a seminar kinda form..
Everything was pretty fine except for just one person that appeared in the same grp as me..
OMG...that's like a nightmare for me..
but...luckily dickson and jacyln was there...so at least i had someone to stick to..
haha..

hmm...dance?
well...it has been fun and busy in dance..
i've been enjoying the company of the dancers..
however, discipline could be something that can be improved on ba..
okie! i shall make this my goal!!!
which is to maintain discipline in the dancers!! ~wooh!
hahaha..
okie..abit on high le...
oh ya! we still went to IMH for our CIP..
i chose IMH becuz i find the people there can get very lonely being closed inside the ward for so many yrs.
so sad...that day when we went there, the people there were very excited and happy to see us..
as of what i've heard from one of the patients...
she told me that they are not allowed to leave unless their family come to bring them out..
and i was quite surprised that some of them have actually been in there for about 30 yrs...
that's really very devastating...

on the other hand, the dancers have actually enjoyed talking to the patients and even requested to go there again..
i've very glad to hear that..
at least we have proven some people out there wrong as they assume people nowadays are only concern about their grades in the subjects they do and totally forgot about contribution, compassion towards the less fortunate.
=D

oh ya...
nearly forgot to post this..haha
yesterday i went out with my classmates..
it was fun..lolx..
although it felt abit weird at 1st...cuz it was all guys..and me being the only girl..
but couldn't help it...
not on good terms with one of the girls in my class..
and another girl wasn't free...
so i went out with all guys...as our class only has 3 girls..including me..
pathetic eh?
lolx...but the guys are actually nice people...

And surprisingly...we actually went to climb fort canning..
lolx...
i didn't know that people will actually accompany me to go climb fort canning...hahaha
so happy!!!
but when i saw Singapore Dance Theatre, i felt very sad again...
it seems so near yet so far...
haizzzzzzz............
when will the day come when i can dance on the international stage???
really really really hope that i can have this chance..
okie...
no more sadness!!!
i shall pursue my DREAMS!!!!
GO GO JIA YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahahahahahaha....

Sign off ~ Lilian

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1:34:00 PM

~Many times, I tried~

The road to giving up seems so near.
But I persevered.

Although our love seems so mere.
An optimist is whom I cheered.

For whom I tear.
I was not treasured.

Perhaps, the end is really near.

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8:53:00 PM

i'm in sentosa now...
have been here since 9 Aug 2007 which is on the National Day
they stay here is nothing that fantastic..
because have to do my hw and revisions here which is kinda a spoiler?
lolx...
finally can go back home tml...
but will need to do the online math quiz..=(
i hate to do online quizzes..
very tough to work out the ans...
but bo bian..then sch's like that..there's nth i can do also..
haha...

anyway, ytd i went to watch Songs of the Sea...i was nice..haha
and before i went to watch, i saw Mr Philip Tan..
was kinda shocked...cuz his eyes very big..haha
but after awhile still quite okie la..

my sis said she saw Mr Paul Chua here also..
haha..
not that i dun believe her..but isn't it like to much of a coincidence??
lolx

hmm...i'm on the houseboat now...just finished BBQ
quite tired...but just thought maybe i shld blog a new post for my own blog..
haha..
cuz the blog is really like "dead"?

okie la..i shall stop here for today...
goodnight to avid readers out there..if there's any..
haha...

BYE~

~Lilian

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10:40:00 PM

Why I feel as though I'm all alone?

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6:11:00 PM

it's early in the morning...preparing for lessons later...sch work is really really alot...sometimes i find that i cannot cope..somemore..being in 1S02, teachers expect alot from us..and i especially hate the GP teacher..that day she spent 1 entire hour just to go thru rules and regulations...can you imagine how much is it?

sigh...PI submission date is this coming monday...luckily..i already have drawn out a mind-map..so it shouldn't be that difficult right? hope so...
no more emo-ing on this blog...haha..
there's always somewhere else i can emo...like my very very personal de diary...ytd i've just wrote sth in there...but nobody will ever know what i wrote inside =P

SYF is around the corner...ytd i've called ms chan up..i was so happy when i heard her voice again..i really really miss bowen dancers...i'm planning to go back next week with roufang...haha..and also planning a dance gathering after SYF..and surprisingly..bowen is going for SYF on 25th..SRJC also..haha..so qiao..

my sprained toe recovered few weeks ago..but i accidentally injured it again..and till now..it hasn't recover again...=(

anyway...sisi is in my room sleeping now..haha..she's so cute..but ke lian also..everytime she'll be bullied by jing ling...jing ling so naughty..i think she wants to be the queen of the dogs ba..

hmmm...i think i'm talking gibberish again..lolx..okie la..shall end here for today...

~lilian

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7:57:00 AM

hmm..i'm back at SR after 1st 3 months..many pple ask me why go to SR when i have 11 points? well there are really too many reasons to list..so i won't be listing them out..but SR is really the college that i would be happy to be in..i wound rather study in an environment which can make me happier..i don't mind if it's small or what..

well..i'm in for SYF this year..haha..unbelieveable eh? lolx..i'm really happy about it..but there are still alot to do..so i shall put in all my effort and like what ms chan say..never stop dancing..let this passion of mine burn forever =D and that's exactly what i'm gonna do..so ms chan..don't worry..i'll do you and mr ryan proud de..i promise =) i really miss Bowen dance club..mr ryan, ms chan, and of course my beloved juniors..i miss all of you so much so much!!! DON'T WORRY!!!! i'll be organising a dance gathering soon after SYF...and never forgeting our seniors..=) i miss them loads too...i wonder how they're doing now..we should really really get together someday =)

and today is SHARON'S B'DAE!!!! i didn forget leh..=P Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to SHARON, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!

today is the last day of orientation for the 2nd intake...i am so happy that i get to dance with Zongda =D haha..at least don't have to dance with other guys...=P so much more convenient sia..haha..
i've made some new friends..and many pple are gonna appeal back to SR!!! *anticipating*

okie la..i end here for today..

~Lilian

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10:19:00 PM

hmm...thanks alvin for reminding me to blog again..haha
i really have nth much to blog..
but guess i just blog one post for fun ba...

SR wasn't that bad as i thought..
in fact..i'm slowly growing to like it..
esp my class, 1S06
everybody are so fun and nice..
just that at times i find some of my classmates very bad towards a particular guy in my class..

korean lessons are fun..
and i've really learn alot from Agnes..
she's a great teacher.. =D
looking forward to every korean class..haha

and Sisi's leg is fnally recovering...
i'm so so so so happy!!!!
she can walk now..but with some difficulty..
can see that she's trying very hard..
and she's really a lovely little cutie...
i'm so glad that she's positive abt recovering =D

and lastly...thank you kok leong lao shi for showing me The Secret
Initially..i thought it was easy...
i thought it was only abt be positive, being happy and feel good...
but...it seems so easy but it's not..
to say is easy but to execute is difficult...

i'm still in the process of learning it...=D

okie..that's all..
wonder when will my next post be..haha..

~lilian

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10:32:00 PM

i know i've not blogged here for a very long time..that's why i'm here again..
i've decided to blog here again is because i feel terrible today..and i know that someone would have forgotten abt the blog..so i wan to write here..
i can no longer surpress..

today was a terrible day for me..
the orientation is disgusting...and tiring..it was no fun at all..

even my mum can see that i cried..
why? why is she so observant? why can she sees wad i'm going thru?
everything she said just now seems like it just hits the bull's eye...
everything was how i felt, wad i wanted to say..

i'm just like any other ordinary girls...
i need love, care, concern, someone to brighten up my day when i seek for help..
but why?
everything just seems to be different...
i kept telling myself that i'm strong..i should control my tears, i should stop crying..
but, tears just came down like todays' evening rain...
eyes swollen...it's like only my mum can see..
i dun wan to be alone..
i'm afraid of lonliness...
i'm not as strong as i may seem to be..
i can be laughing right now...in front of everybody..
and when i reach my room, then i can finally be someone whom i really am...a weak girl..
why do i have to put on an act infront of everybody?
why do i have to put on a strong front and cheat everybody?
i can just be myself...
but why? why did i choose that?
nobody knows...maybe i myself dun even know..

the worst enemy in life is myself...
i dun even know things abt myself..how i can be a psychologist in the future?

ii was very very sad when you didn even bother to comfort me today when i sought for help...
i was feeling terrible and lonely inside me..
and i smsed you...hoping very much that you'd give me some comfort..
but..you told me that was wad i want...

yes..i agree...the path was wad i chose..
and to be honest...i really regret abt it..
i'm thinking of withdrawal...
but can i? should i be like a tortise who hides into its own shell when challenges are just upfront?
i dun want to do that...maybe i'll get hurt...but even if i die...i dun wan you to pity me..i dun wan your sympathy...

just now while crossing the road..how much i wished that a car can just run me down...
but it didn happen..and i was quite glad abt it..

because...when i reaced home..jing ling barked at me..seemingly trying to tell me that she'll be there for me...
even if he'll not be there for me...there'll always be my family, friends or even my dogs to keep me company...
to listen to my problems, to talk to me, to be behind me supporting every decision i make in life...

PERHAPS, we've planned our route too long ahead of us....
PERHAPS, things will not end up like wad we thought...
from now on...i'll take one step at a time...
i dun wish to expect too much....
i'll just be contented with wad i have...
and i wun force things that i dun have to be part of my possesion...
if the thing is not mine..it'll always not be mine..
if we're meant to be for each other, we'll still be together no matter how much tears or laughters we've gone through together...
everything in this world are probably fated, or not...
well, i dun know...and i hope that i can construct a future that i really wan no matter how much setbacks i've faced in life...

last but not least...i thank him for putting up with me and sometimes supporting me...
and he was really someone whom i can rely on in the past...
he taught me to be independent and never to trust a person too much in life...

thank you...thanks for your presence all these while..
no matter how much tears i've gone thru, i've definately learn a lesson from each experience..

-Stay with me;
6:57:00 PM

haiz...
stomach cramp
gastric pain...
this two coming together...
i really feel like dying...

haiz..
why am i always the one making people sad?
i just meant good...
but....
haiz...
nevermind

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12:17:00 PM

haiz...
am i someone who gives only empty promises?
someone who gives nothing but troubles?
someone who gives nothing but miseries?
someone who is incapable of anything?
someone who gives nothing but hopeless hopes?
someone who harms people around me?
someone who is that useless?

can somebody please help me?
can somebody just hide me somewhere?
just prevent me to be found and stop causing troubles, empty promises, miseries, hopeless hopes and harm?
i feel so helpless...

i'm losing myself...
i can no longer recognise myself...
i just want an escape...
but i have to face it...

please...................can someone just hide me?

i hate myself...
never confident about myself again....
i'm just that bad and useless....

-Stay with me;
8:20:00 PM

wow...it has been such a long time since i've blogged...so sorry...
hahas...
so much had happened..but i didnt blog anything about it at all..
yah...after prelims..and i've gotten my results..
i've improved..
but, still didnt manage to meet kok leong's standard..
anyway...there's a limit to everything right?
but i'll definately push myself harder de....

and...that day...our sch celebrated mid-autumn..
i performed..
but i was really not satisfied with my own performance...
reasons being, i was too nervous and i didnt really practised...
anyway...i still gained valuable experience...

yesterday i was thinking...izit possible that we stop quarrelling?
cuz if we stop quarrelling...we'll have more happy times..
i really hate those times when i make him sad...

i feel like i've failed....
one of my philosophies inlife is actually to make everyone around me happy..
however..i know it's difficult..
but...never say die always say try right?
there's always a way to make pple smile...
maybe just that i haven thought of the ways ba..
haha..
it's okay..i can always fnd out slowly if i try...
right?
Aja aja fighting!!!! lolx...

anyway...i've been talking to celine recently...
and cleared out some of her thoughts and dilemma...
i'm very happy today when she said she always liked talking to me..
hahas...
i feel so happy.....
then i was helping her or rather giving her suggestions abt sth..
haha

oh ya..and abt my b'day...
my dad brought in a new member to our family...Kitty..
she's not a cat wor..
she's a dog...
must be puzzled why i gave her this name right?
haha...
cuz i tot....if i put the word "Hello" in front..
her name will be Hello Kitty...
haha...
okay..i know it's very bad of me to give this name to her..
but it's cute...isn't it?

when i told celine this...
she said i'm a funny person..
hahaha..
and i must admit..she's very funny also..
she thought of giving her music school this name - Woohoo~ Sch of perf arts
haha...
then it'll be like..
"let's put our hand together to welcome Team Woohoo!!!" (aplause)
hahahaha....
she even tot that...when introducing..
the word Woohoo must have that punch and in singsong method..
haha..

she's really funny yea?
lolx...

yah...and i'm learning harmony for my lesson recently..
it's tough...but fun
haha...

and i'm very very happy and contented that my dear dear actually accompanied me for my lesson...
i'm so blessed right?
haha...
yah..
that's why i'm treasuring...
haha....yupps..

opps...got to go..
a really very vey long post for today..
maybe just to make up for not posting for such a long time ba..
hahas..
sorry once again =P

~Lilian

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10:32:00 PM

should i give up? am i forcing things???
i don't know..

gastric again...
i know..it is definately affected by one's emotion and mood...
i hate having gastric..
but..can i control???
just let me die.............

bad bad mood....
very very bad...
i hate today!!!!!
='(

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4:34:00 PM

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4:34:00 PM

hiya..
it has been some time since i've blogged..
hmmm...
there has been ups and downs for me these few days..
one of the worst things that happened to me recently was..
my mum daoing me...
she was angry with me for about 2 weeks.....
i must say..
during those days..
i really felt very lost and down in the throat...

but, i think everything is fine now..
she has started talking to me now..
even though the way she spoke to me wasn't like before..
i'm contented that she starts talking to me again..
i'm sure, things will get better soon..
and today is mummy's b'dae..

HAPPY B'DAE MUMMY!!!!

hmm..and now is the national day's holidays..
can relax abit liao..
but..have to study le..
so cannot relax too much yeah?
haha...

okay..guess that's all for today..
bye..
~Lilian

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5:42:00 PM

YAY!!!!
finally...i went back to dance..
haha..finally got to do some stretching!!!
i missed dance so much =D

very very happy!!!!!!!! hahas..
so easily contented eh? LOLX..
I LOVE DANCE!!!!!!
yipee!!!!

hahas...
I'm a blessed girl..
with someone who cares for me
and be by my side when i'm down..
=) Thank You

~Lilian

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9:15:00 PM

MOE EXCEL FEST is over yesterday..
friday was a more tiring day than saturday..
cuz there were more pple..
it's time to get down to work..

hmm...might be a little stressful..
but it's okay..
pple grow under stress conditions..

but too stress may lead pple to poor health..
so..don't overwork..
and monitor my own health.
haha..
dunno what i'm talking about...
~just woke up~

gtg...
~Lilian

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10:03:00 AM

i'm pissed off !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

everything also don't want me to care..
then i don't care lo...

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9:12:00 PM

hihi..so sorry for not blooging these few WEEKS...lolx..
hmm...sch reopen for abt 1 week liao..
quite sian...
today just ended my O level chinese oral..
haiz..don't think i can do well for the oral..
but..nvm..it's over liao..no point brooding over it right?

anyway..i've not blogged for soooooooooo long because, i'm kinda tired of blogging liao.. =P
but..i'll still blog de la..
maybe once in a blue moon..
hehe..
workload should be increasing soon..
so..better rest well while i can..
gtg..

~lilian

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10:43:00 PM

hmm...today we've just ended our extended curriculum lessons..
but..so sad..
have to start working tml..
and holiday assignment is piling up..
haiz...

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6:12:00 PM

bad day for mi...
i hate myself for being too vulnerable..

~lilian

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9:07:00 PM

hmm...so bored...holidays seem to be so dead this year...
with lots of homework and stuff..
but i dun tink will have time to rest..
after sch's extended curriculum, i'll be working in dad's office again..
haiz..tats boring...
but muz learn how to earn money liao...
otherwise mummy will sae i learn how to spend before i learn how to earn..
LOLX...
yah..my resolution this year is to save more money!!!!!
BUT...i dun seem to be on the right track..
hmm..
it's time for mi to do some reflection liao
haha..
okie..i'll stop here for the day...

~Lilian

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6:23:00 PM

hmm..mother tongue O levels is coming le..29th may
i'm kinda nervous..haha
and on 30th may, i'm having math olympiad competition..
and 31st may, i'm having english prelims oral...
haha...so busy eh..lol
and we are having extended curriculum during the june hols
haha....

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9:01:00 PM

haha...tat day friday, 19 may was a marking day..
lolx..had fun tat dae...watch 2 movies on tat day..
over the hedge and poseidon...
i actually prefer over the hedge more than poseidon...
haha..
i'm not childish..but over the hedge is funny..lolx...

yah..i'm composing again..haha..
all the best to mi...lolx..
JIA YOU!!!!

~lilian

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11:32:00 PM

HIHI !!!! i'm back to blog again..lolx.
haha..it has been for quite some time since i've blogged le...
all thanks to the exams..haha

but finally..exams are over..lol
but soon...chinese O levels is coming...
and i still have olympiad mathematics
haha...but i prepared to get COP liao...lolx

felt like sleeping juz now...
but when i saw my keyboard..i'm energised again..lolx
listening to BoA's song now..
haha...are u thinking : "again?"
lol...haha yeah...
i'm even more energised now...haha

i tink my results wun be veri pleasant this time round..haiz..
nvm..i'll buck up!!!!
yup...haha..

gtg liao...
bye bye... =)
*miracle* LILIAN...lolx

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5:36:00 PM

omg...mid-year examination is around the corner..
and...i'm down with flu at this point of time..
haiz...wad a 'perfect' timing...

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9:02:00 PM

Tml will be the PAL 2 last session....
so sad....
i guess we'll need lots of tissue tml bah...
for all the tears...

there'll be a celebration too...
haha..for the launch of performers' lab...
but i tink our eyes will be super red and swollen ba...

muz bring camera tml..haha

~lilian

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9:41:00 PM

I'M HAPPY...CONTENTED...

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9:00:00 PM

:( i'm so sad...
today should be my last official dance practice ba..
i reli feel like crying...
i reli dunno why some pple can rejoice when they step down....
whereas i juz feel like crying...

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8:30:00 PM

public performance is over le...
so sad..
i always hated it when performance is over...
esp for those where we have a few shows in a single day or for a few days..
of e.g. Chingay, Exploration of Youth 4 Seasons...
i missed it so much..
i think it's my last performance for Bowen...
i miss it!!!!!
but i enjoyed throughout the whole process...
everytime when the curtain closes...
my heart will feel as if it's dropping
and i cnt see a goal anymore...

can i have dance as O levels instead???

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9:24:00 PM

tml will be the day...
looking forward it it...after all our rehearsals...
but sth reli bad happened...
inconvenient to say it here so i wun say it le....

but i reli muz apologize to them altough i wasn't the one who blasted at them...
but on behalf of my friend...
i would like to say..
SORRY BACKSTAGE CREWS!!!!!
and oso thank them for helping us all these days...
even for the launch of the performers' lab...
they were there too...
i reli appreciate their help

and i rlei hope tat the chaoir pple can understand mi..
i reli dun want to "steal their limelight" de lo...
haiz...

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1:41:00 PM

oh...it has been such a long time since i've blogged..
reli veri busy recently..
with sch work and preparing for the public performance at DBS arts centre
15 APR 2006!!!!

last year on this dae...15 APR 2005, we got our SYF result!!!!!
haha...such coincidence isn't it??? LOLX

i'm so glad tat pple around mi are encouraging mi when i'm stressed..
esp when i'm not reli doin well for my solo...
pple sae tat i look reli stressed
but i dun tink so leh..
maybe it's becuz of the bio test bah...
dunno la...i tink i'm quite stressed for this performance oso...
shld be becuz of the limited time we are left with ba...

GOOD LUCK!!!!!

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9:32:00 PM

sian...
hw is juz never-ending...
i tot this is expected of all sec 4 classes...
but i doesn't seem to be the case leh...
why izit like tat???

anyway...had AOM gathering yesterdae!!!!
haha...it's so fun...the food is very nice..
but it's spicy...
i had a pimple todae...
sian...aiya..nvm la...who dun have pimples rite??
haha...
i got to noe more pple from AOM yesterdae...
i hope to have more gatherings like tat...
i love it!!!

but the consequences is...gt to rush my hw like mad..
but it's worth it la...
haha..

sign off here~
learning for test!!!
gambate!!!!

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10:24:00 PM

1. Grab the book nearest to you and turn to Page 18, Line 4.
(a) Given that n(E) = 50, find the value of x.
2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
printer
3. What was the last thing you watched on TV?
BoA's MTV!!!!
4. Without looking, guess what the time is.
12am
5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
11.58am haha
6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
BoA's la la la love song
7.When did you last step outside?
1hr ba...
8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
my hp...
9. What are you wearing?
jeans and t-shirt
10. Did you dream last night?
nope
11. When did you last laugh?
1 second ago
12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
dance pictures and clock..
13. Seen anything weird lately?
a lizard inside my locker
14. What do you think of this quiz?
quite stupid...haha
15. What is the last film?
dunno...
16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
MY DREAM HOUSE IN KOREA!!! and of cse... A FLIGHT TICKET TO KOREA!!!!
17. Tell me something about you I don't know.
eh...dunno leh..
18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
GET EVERYBODY TO DANCE...
19. Do you like to dance?
OF COURSE!!!! NEEDLESS TO SAY!!!
20. George W Bush...
??? is the president of america???
21. Imagine your first child is a girl. What would you call her?
haven tot of it b4...
22. Imagine your first child is a boy. What would you call him?
haven tot of it oso...
23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
yes. KOREA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
24. What would you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
huh???
25. 4 people who must do this in their blogs
nobody, nobody. nobody and nobody....haha

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11:18:00 PM

mr kim wif mei ting

korean hip hop master..mr kim..

mr kim wif mi

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12:25:00 PM

i had korean hip hop yesterdae!!!!!!
it was super fun!!!!
although it was rather difficult..
i still enjoyed it!!!!
the instructor taught many singers in korea!!!!!
including Rain, Baby Vox, seVen, etc...
cool right??!!

but there was this communication prob la....
however...i reli feel tat dance is an universal language...haha

i'm missing it soooooo much!!!!
it made mi feel more and more like going to korea now!!!!!

but sad tat the lesson onli lasted for such a short time....
but i'm veri motivated by him!!!!
JIA YOU!!!

~Lilian

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10:00:00 AM

YEAH!!! end of common test!!!
todae..i'm reli veri happy!!!!
done quite well for my A math common test paper...
and juz finished the presentation for the sch teachers tis afternoon..
haha...extremely nervous during the presentation..
but gt quite good comments from teachers...i'm so HAPPY!!!
after the presentation...mei ting, rou fang, wee nee, jessica and mi..went to canteen for a celebration
haha...lame???

anyway...had a lot of laughters during the GALS TALK todae!!!
my jaw is veri pain now...haha..the result of laughing too much...
but worth it la..
it has been quite long since i've reli laughed heartily...

anyway...we should nt celebrate so soon..
cuz we'll still need to do the presentation in march for the teachers in other sch..
and i heard...there'll be around 15o TEACHERS!!!!

I'M having LOTS OF FUN IN SCH TODAE!!!!
YEAH YEAH YEAH!!!!

and i saw BoA's Everlasting MTV todae!!!!
i'm soooooooooooo lucky right??!!
oh...there muz be a lot of stars tonite ba...
watch out for the stars!!!!!

~MIRACLELILIAN

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8:59:00 PM

common test stress...
am i slacking?

I'LL NEVER GIVE UP ON DANCE!!!!
NEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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12:53:00 AM

have anybody noticed the stars tonight???
the stars are so brightly shining...
i juz love the stars...it makes me a lucky gal...at least for the day itself..
and it oso gives mi a great dae...and brightens up my mood

todae...when i was on my way home..
i looked up in the sky...
and realised tat the stars todae are actually the brightest i've ever seen at least till now....

and so..
i've decided to boost my confidence and tok to my mum abt wad i've learnt the the adam khoo's workshop...
and as i said..
i cried...right in front of her...
she told mi a lot...
abt my dad's company...
telling mi tat we'll be the one's tat will be taking over the job in the future...
i expected this to happen...
expected tat i'll not be able to pursue my dreams as a dancer, singer or a psychologist...

but i dun blame them...
not at all...

and from wad i've learn from gary yesterdae...

happiness...is sth u feel when ur parents are happy...pple around u are happy...
and..it is not sth when u have fulfilled all you dreams..

but..i've promised myself, dancers, ms chan tat i'll still con't towards my dancing route...
but...the onli diff is..
now..i'll be doing my dad's job b4 i con't wif my dreams and aspirations....
hope tis day will come...reli soon...

~miracles please....

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12:49:00 AM

the 6 dancers [chingay @ orchard]
unforgetable...

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11:35:00 PM

hmm...went to NAFA yesterday....
i was quite disappointed...
i feel veri uncomfortable when i see them dance...
becoz...they dun look like they are having fun when they dance...
this is exactly not the attitude of dance right...
i fully agree that a dancer muz be focused and strict on his/her dancer...
but like wad ryan said...all these should be kept in the heart...
as dancers we are suppoed to enjoy wad we dance...
dancing is a veri enjoyable activity...so juz enjoy!!!

i'm now having 2nd thoughts whether i should take dancing as my full-time job or juz keep it as an interest??
mummy didn allow mi to be a full-time dancer...
cuz she sae papa's office still need mi...
hmm...
probably wad i'll do is, learn accounting...
then go to singapore dance theatre to learn dance...
maybe be a part-time dancer or wad...
but i reli appreciate the help tat mr chua is offering...
which is to help mi get connected to the NAFA pple if i wanna be a full-time dancer...
becoz...normally when NAFA takes in students...they'll need to see their portfolio...
but i dun have 1...

anyway...i tink i'll juz focus on my studies this year 1st...
then make decisions after my O levels...
there goes my korea dreams...haiz...

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10:16:00 AM

hmm...chingay over le...
so sad...i hate tis type of short term excitement!!!!
i reli hoped that i can perform again in such a big event...
cuz its reli reli veri fun!!!!
haha...although i had to stay up till around 2am during fri and sat juz to do my hw...LOL
gt to noe many pple thru the performance...including mr heng...haha
reli hoped i can perform again...
cuz it's reli veri happening...

~miraclelilian

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5:51:00 PM

ANNYONG HASEHYO!!!!!
finally had the real dance practice again le...
so fun!!!
i love dance....

and i'll be dancing like siao this few daes...
5 consecutive daes of dancing...
and 3 consecutive days of performance...
so shiok!!!!

lol...i'm veri happy todae...although i failed 1 topic for the e math online test...haha
but i passed 4...i'm contented le.... :)

~miraclelilian...

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10:42:00 PM

am i being boycott in school???
i feel so upset...
pple juz seem to be somebody i dunno...
i'm veri scared now..wad should i do??
have i done sth wrong or wad??
some of u might think tat i'm juz thinking too much...
but u all..yes i mean you all..won't understand until u are in this position of mine now....
everything is so sudden...
sometimes...i juz dunno when...and it happens
i reli dunno wad i am saying now...
i juz feel tat i'm being boycott...
reli...i'm feeling tat...
i dun feel like going to sch le...
going to sch now seems to be a great burden for mi...
not becos of the work...
but becos of something which i dun reli noe wads tat

is this friendship under a test???
i reli hoped tat things can be like wad it was in the past...
i hate sch!!!!
STOP TREATING MI LIKE A PUPPET!!!!!!

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12:48:00 AM

hmmm...have not posted for some time le...
todae was reli a veri long day for mi...
woke up at 5.50am preparing to go sch...
then have lesson until 11.30...then followed by the CNY celebration...
then went for lunch wif sharon, her friends, MT and RF...
after tat...went back to sch to get the jazz shoes...
then, proceeded to northland sec wif the BB guys and ms lee...for the combined rehearsal...
it ended at abt 6++...waited for the bus for at least half an hour...
then...came home...had tuition from 8.30 to 10...
after tat...mummy and me went to do our nails...
sat there for so many hours...
until now...
CNY cuming...
haiz...will gain weight again...

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2:39:00 AM

oh!!! so busy lately!!!!
aiya...i've been so busy since tis year started lo...
sian...
but so far so good...
only tired...but CNY is coming...
and i'm looking forward to it...
after i get my ang paos...i wan to go shopping wif esther...haha
and buy lots of CDs...esp KOREAN!!!!!
oh ya!! and i bought 6 CDs todae...haha
so happy!!!
but not all i buy one la...
some are bought by sis...
or i would say "most"
gtg...nite!!

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11:46:00 PM

I STILL MISS KOREA SOOOO MUCH !!!!!!!!!!

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10:18:00 PM

oh...sec 4 is reli tough and busy...
my sleeping time is getting shorter and shorter...
and the time i'm cuming home is getting later and later...
chinese new year is coming....
ang baos!!! haha
i wan to buy a lot of CDs!!!
but no $$
after CNY!!!! i'll buy all the CDs i want!!
muahahaha....lolx

I LOVE DANCE!!!!
dancers jia you!! go go jia you!!!

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11:59:00 PM

oh...reli a tiring dae for mi todae...
i had my chem test todae...and b4 tat i gt PE followed by 3 periods of A Math and recess...
so i didn reli slp well the nite b4 becuz of the chem test la...
after sch...
walked around the sch for few minutes...then went to canteen wif MT and RF...
haha...RF and i actually ganged up to cheat MT...haha
we told her tat i'm goin to korea tonight and coming back on sundae nite...
cuz she saw the jacet in my bag...
so we tot of tis idea...
okie la...i tink i'm bad to cheat pple la...
but i'll let her noe tml when i see her...
sure kena beat by her lo...haha
but i reli hope i can fly to korea at this point of time....
even when i'm so tired...

oh ya...btw...after we went to canteen...we proceeded to the dino room to teach RF the BB Scottish dance from abt 1.15 to 3.18 ba...
for your information...i'm performing for chingay!!!!
haha...should have a lot of CCA points ba??
lolx...
but it'll reli be veri tiring lo...
becuz...we are having lots of rehearsals here and there...
and the performance itself is on 3 consecutive daes...
3, 4, 5 Feb!!!
confirm veri tired de...anw..it's dancing...
so shouldn't be a prob for mi...haha

back to the topic...
BB dance which ends at abt 5+ pm...
then when i was on my way home i realised i didn bring my hse keys...
therefore...i cnt enter the hse...haha
waited for quite some time for my maid to return home and open door for mi...
then at 6.30, i had my tuition...
almost fell asleep...
so sorry teacher...i am reli tired todae...

btw...todae's PE reli no fun...
we played captain's ball la...as usual..
but toae mr lim added sth..
if a team scores...the opposing team will have to do 5 push-ups each...
we scored twice...
then mr lim decided to help the other team...
and they scored abt 4 balls...
so we ended up doing 20 push-ups...
and i did the guy's style..
cuz quite used to it le...
as it is always being used in dance trainings as well...
*sign off
good nite

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1:17:00 AM

hmm...yesterdae was CCA open hse...
reli tiring...haha...got to put on make-up for everybody within half an hour or so ba...
haha...lucky gt pple like rou fang to help mi...
and oso wif the comments of other dancers...haha...thx..
to wad i tink la...i tink yesterdae's performance was successful...haha
while we were dancing...we heard cheering!!!! haha
so cool...and i'm reli veri happy... :)

then after the performance...
i ran around the sch to look for sharon to get back the make-up kit and all...
haha..tiring..but fun!!! smiling at parents while i was looking for sharon...
haha..one of my stratergies to attract more sec 1s to our CCA!!!!

then...after tat, i went home wif chen xu and her friend...
when i reached home, it was abt 8+ pm
then still got to do hw...
then i do until 12+...but i'm a little disappointed...
becos' i felt so stupid...
cuz i tink there are oni a few in the class including mi who actually did the hw...

anyway...i was reli tired in sch todae...
and reli felt like sleeping...esp in such weather...
but todae's reli veri veri cold in sch...
then cnt reli pay attention to my lessons...
i'm having chem test tml...
sian lo...
dun even noe wad i'm studying...
cnt concentrate at all...

and tml i'm going for a BB dance practice for chingay...haha
can u believe it??
i'm performing for chingay...haha
and gt 2 CCA points for it!!! becos' it's a public performance...
looking forward to it...
but i want to rest well 1st can??
ans: cannot...
haha...sry for being lame here...
but no choice...reli tired la...

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10:04:00 PM

i'm sad and happy todae...
sad becos.. i sprain my leg tat dae...and it affected my dance...
and the rehearsal todae was reli bad...i'm so sad....wrong timing, wrong steps...
i tink it was partially becos of the music..
i couldn't hear the muic at all lo...

but i'm reli happy todae..esp for clara..
becos' she has got in!!! yipee!!!
but pple pls con't to support her...
thank you!!
and i went to mediacorp todae to watch the recording...
it was my 1st time going into the studio...
haha...it was fun!!!

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12:55:00 AM

i've reli been feeling stressed out recently...
i find tat i'm commited to too many things and i tink i'm unable to cope or rather i'm not used to coping and still need time to learn...
but pple just seem to be thinking tat i'm a superwoman who can do everything by her own and everything will be done perfectly...
but..i may appear to be strong...but i'm juz like anyone of you out there...
i'm oso a human...
i need time to learn...
pls allow me to have some time to breathe and take a short break...
stop pushing me!!!
i'm afraid i cnt take it one dae...
i find tat...everytime when i'm stress...
i'll dress up quite a bit in order to make myself feel better...
but i doesn't seem to work for me todae..
i cried while i was having keyboard lesson todae...
i dunno why..i juz feel like crying when i find tat i cannot get the chords out by myself..
and i am reli stressed!!!!!
everything juz dun seem to fall in place...
i'm having a phobia of facing things now..
but i muz realise tat as i grow up...
i muz face challenges ahead of me...
i noe how to relax but wad happens after i relax??
burdens start coming like tsunamis again...
it's always never-ending for me....
how can i act brave, strong and confident when tsunami is coming?
more responsibilities?
responsible for all i am doing...
to dance, my work, exams, my cca, keyboard, vocal, pg???
maybe i'm still not there yet...
i juz need to buck up...
but some of the things i'm asked to do, i dun even have a choice for it...
tasks are juz thrown to me...
i dun have a choice...not at all!!!!!
where are my rights???
why can't i choose wad i want??
and why muz everything go against me???
can i do anything to tackle them?
i tink i should read up more on self-improvement stuffs...
to improve myself and find ways to tackle wif stress...
thank you teacher for toking wif mi juz now...
maybe i juz need time to think over wad teacher has said...

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2:09:00 AM

returned to sch lately...
i'm sure tis year will be a veri exciting year...
as i'm having my O levels tis year...panicking le...
and oni the 2nd dae of sch...
we are already being asked to prepare for 2 tests...
i'm sure there'll be more in time to come...
tml having an english test...
and next wednesdae is CCA open hse...
haven reli prepare for it...
but we started having practice todae le...
i'm tinking of taking up korean class...so i can migrate there when i master the language...
but i tink tis year is not an appropriate year for mi to take up so many things...hor..
so i tink will have to postpone tat to next year liao...
haiz...
some of our subject teachers have changed...
all was all right except for the physics teacher...
when mr chan took mi for physics...i had a C6
but when mr lim took over..i got A1!!!!
and now...they are changing it back to mr chan!!!
oh man...pls dun fool mi leh...especially tis year is reli a veri crucial year for mi leh...
haiz...lucky i'm still having tuitions...
so i tink won't be tat bad ba...
good luck to me!!!

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8:14:00 PM

having been starting wif my running again...
this time round...i'll reli take my time and not force myself...
or else will feel like vomitting again....
went to sch todae for the proposal thing...
feels like...didn do reli much there todae...
and after tat...went for lessons...haha
keyboard lessons: finally gt the feel teacher wants already...at least beta then last time...
but tis time reli jia lat le...need to find my own chords...
listen to tian hei hei and find my own chords???
will tat be too difficult for me?
Vocal lessons: when i reached there...i saw benedict doing some running or wad...and singing while doing them...
KL was training our stamina...it was reli a fun lesson todae...
and guess wad...i gt power le...haha...but still dunno how to ctrl...
and i learnt how to use my body to help mi generate more power...
i ran around the classroom oso..singing ting hai while running...
reli quite tough...
and we saw BoA's concert!!!!!!!!!!!!
Woow!!! she's reli veri veri pro...
cuz she can still sing so well even though she's lying down...
and her voice still remains the same even shen she sits up...
if u tink tat it's veri easy...nope...u r wrong...
if u dun believe mi...go try it out urself...
cuz you need to support the diaphram against the gravity...and the voice projection is upwards...which is veri tough...
and i ran 2.5 km todae...haha

can anybody teach mi how to handle wif hyperactive male puppies???

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8:59:00 PM

I've been dreaming a lot these few daes...
and i still miss korea as much as before....
but, i noe i have to carry on wif wad i am supposed to do...
like, homework, lessons, and projects...
i am reli tinking of migrating to korea when i grow older...
i want to learn korean....
but time hardly alow mi to do wad i want...
i believe this is one of my adversities ba...

I LOVE KOREA, MISS KOREA, KEN, JUNG HUN AND DRIVER!!!!!

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8:19:00 AM

juz return from korea not long ago...

i was arranging the photos we took in korea and suddenly...i reli feel tat i'm missing korea, Ken and Jung Hun...
so sad...
but i reli enjoyed life over there...although the weather there was freezing cold...
the temperature once dropped to -17 degree celsius...
almost freeze there lo...haha
every morn...we'll wear abt 5 layers of clothes then plus the jacket will be 6 layers of clothing...haha
i'm not boosting...not at all...

we saw snow almost every 2 days or so...and ken said, we are the group tat brings snow...haha
cuz even places tat weren't supposed to snow, snowed...

the 1st 3 daes were mainly taking plane to travel here and there...
but the 2nd dae's afternoon..we were in jeju...and we had a snow ball fight...haha
ken was reli pro...he aimed veri far...plus...his aimming is reli veri accurate...
he could catch all the snow balls we threw...pro right?
erm...we went to teddy bear museum..then i took picture of the retro bears...cuz of some project i m involved in...
erm...we did some shopping in the city...but things there are reli veri expansive...so, didn reli buy a lot...

many funny things happened there...e.g. jung hun's incident...
erm...he's our photographer...cuz he's not reli good in english, and we all (the gals) oni knew annyong hasehyo and kamsa hamida during the 1st few daes...
so, the moment we saw him, we'll say annyong hasehyo to him...
it was quite alright for the 1st few daes. but as daes passes...he got kinda restless...
i tink i could see tat he's avoiding us a little bit or wad...
but he's reli a veri good person...
oh ya...and his scarf was taken away by the dog of the restaurant...haha..
veri ke lian hor...

we went skiing oso...but i won't sae much on tat...cuz reli veri paiseh...haha...
pls dun ask mi why.... okie??
we had an excellent driver too...but he looks kinda fierce...

during our last night in korea, we played Black Jack wif Ken...
person wif more than 21, will have to be beaten by everybody...
and the 1st will beat the 2nd, 2nd will beat the 3rd..so on..
everybody were quite lenient except for Ken...
OMG!!! he's reli veri strong and harsh...although he said he hadn't used any force at all...
the moment after he hit, i feel numb then it turns red...
he uses oni 2 fingers...so oni gt 2 finger marks...
by right, the rule was supposed to be, the winner hit everybody...
but, becos' Ken is reli veri unlucky in these type of games, so he changed the rule..
so tat he have the chance to hit pple...

even on the last dae...it snowed!!! we are reli the veri lucky bunch...haha
hope to go korea soon again...

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1:46:00 AM

yipee!!! going to korea tml night...
so excited..i wanna buy lots of things there...
i wanna buy CDs...haha
but...
i am having rashes all over my body now!!!
omg...it's so itchy...
maybe it's becos of wad i ate for dinner ba...
some squid??? ~.~'''

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11:30:00 PM

i'm so happy todae...haha
i found my pri school friend...
and chatted wif her on msn...
miss her so much...cuz she was one of my best friend then...
great to noe tat she's still dancing...haha..same as mi...
but dunno why...
recently...i m feeling veri giddy
wads happening to mi?
aiya..dunno la...
maybe i shld juz heed pple's advice and have a check-up..
but it's painful lo...
dunno la...
juz wait lo...see wad will happen 1st...

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10:52:00 PM

boring boring boring....
everyday do homework until siao le...everydae do hw until 2am liketat...
veri tired lo...have to try finish homework before i go korea...
maybe will even need to bring some work there to do lo...
but luckily of wad i promised myself...
i am on track of wad i m doin now le...
but hor...some teachers hor...still want to give more homework online lo...
siao...i hate homework lo...
got holiday oso like no holiday like tat...
sian...homework siao...
did the proposal yesterday wif wee nee...
and after tat we discussed a lot abt singing and had a lady's talk...
haha..lol
btw...some of the PAL II members are goin to see the principal and propose to him on wad we have in mind abt the launching of the performers' lab..
it's indeed a great experience...looking forward to it ;)

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9:18:00 AM

sprain my leg yesterdae...
better le cuz i was wearing the ankle support last night
haha...a promise to myself is definately bringing mi to late nights...
sian...
but i'll be goin for vocal and keyboard lesson todae...
looking forward to it...
erm...but...
i've not reli prepared for the song : open your eyes
and the keyboard: greatest love of all
guess later i'll juz sui ji ying bian le lo...

sign off* miraclelilian* haha publicising again

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10:00:00 AM

yesterdae...my mom juz showed mi the letter sent to mi regarding the scholarship...
juz then, i realised why my mum has been asking mi whether i want to go for my vocal lessons...
haha...cuz tat time she was saying: u muz not be getting ur scholarship...cuz u r putting in too much time for ur vocal and keyboard lessons...
then now by getting my scholarship...tis definately has proven her wrong..haha

has been sneezing all the way yesterdae...who's scolding mi or toking behind my back huh?
wadever....nevermind la....

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10:12:00 AM

snowie...i miss u so much....
yesterday wad ur 3rd mth death anniversary...
as usual...i'm crying again...i reli misses u...
can somebody juz help mi stop all the pain inside mi?
dun worry...i've finally found the culprit...
just wait and see...
retribution will surely befall her...
i swear...nv to tok to her again...
NO MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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12:14:00 AM

hmm...yesterdae was the grand opening of the music sch THE ART OF MUSIC!!!!
erm...although i tink tat we didn reli did well for the performance...but we reli put in all our efforts for it...
celine and kok leong muz be quite sad ba...seeing tis kind of performance...
haiz...anyway its over...no point brooding over it...
but kinda in a bad mood....sian...
haven finish homework...then english still got homework...jia lat
i tink i'll be quarantined at home ba...
thx celine for explaining to my parents yesterdae...THANK U!!!!!
TAKE CARE EVERYBODY!!!
cuz somebody veri poor thing fell sick on the performance dae...
but luckily..it didn reli affect his performance ba...maybe juz a little??
cuz like everybody in the PG is affected..maybe due to the stress or maybe we are too nervous...
sign off...

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12:55:00 PM

life w/o music is worse of than hell!!!!!!!!!!!!
i've been experiencing this type of feeling these few dae....
and i dun tink i can take it anymore...i mean...i'll be breaking down soon...real soon...
pple juz dun seem to understand mi...
adults juz seems to be grown-ups who contradicts...
these few daes i've been at home...really rotting!!!
the daes while i haf my lessons and rehearsal...i still will do my hw...
cuz...enjoying will ha to balance out wif work...
but now...i oni gt work but NO enjoyment...
so i conclude tat i dun work oso to balance out lo...
juz dun drive mi mad...i hate do nth but work...
it really and only bring up only 1 word...BORING!!!!!!!!!!!!
SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD

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12:08:00 AM

kinda busy lately....pple closer to mi might noe wad i m busy wif...(the performance tat's around the corner)
and yesterdae was my brother's b'dae...bought a long-sleeved shirt for him...juz becos' we r goin to korea soon and tis poor bro doesn't even has a long-sleeved shirt...omg...
juz to prevent my bro frm freezing...lolx...
juz to sae sth...although i noe many of u won't believe wad i'll be saying...
Sisi (my dog) ran to scratch my door in order to wake i up 2 daes ago at around 5.30 am...
she couldn't sleep and came to look for mi...it was raining and there r lightnings...which i tink scared him...
then i opened the door for her...she dashed in immediately...then few minutes later...my maid came to my room to look for her as oni my room's light was swithed on...my maid took her down...and i followed...
minutes later...i decided to bring sisi to my room to slp....
then i switched on the platform light for her and switched on the tv...i patted her until she slps
and she slept on my bed veri quickly...then at around 7am...my maid took her down..
onli until then i cont'd sleeping but..abt 10 minutes later my mum came in to wake mi up for work...and i slept at around 12.30am last night...reli tired when i reached the office...
when my mum told my dad abt wad happened to sisi...he didnt believe lo...
wadever...
i went to see the doctor yesterdae...i was havin a sore throat...although it wasn't veri severe...
i was afraid tat it might afect my performance...then after we celebrated my bro's b'dae...
i was feeling really veri uneasy...and ate some pills and went to slp...
todae's better...hope i can recover soon...
sign off *miraclelilian

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11:45:00 AM

haiz...so many commitments these daes...
haf to be commited to the performing grp, to dance club, to my post, to the sch, to the PAL II performing arts leaders II
y ah??? y muz i commit to so many things? when i haf a choice to choose not to???

anyway...the camp ends todae...but the journey has juz started...
we r continuing PAL II till next year's june ba...
i've learnt a lot during the camp...real a lot...
i've learnt to open up to feedbacks from others...and i've nv ever thought tat i'll be so involved in the camp's activities lo...
Jumping Jacq oso said tat she finds mi veri different from wad she saw mi while i was in NACLI last year...
more daring...to question..and to sae out my thoughts and to share my experiences...
she asked y...and meiting said..." ever since the dentist plucked out her tooth, she was like tat already...maybe the dentist plucked her wrong nerve ba" hahahaha....

reli talked a lot to Jumping Jacq todae...
she shared the story abt her dog, Coke todae...who died few years back
it reminded mi of snowie instantly...i cried...she cried too...
i can reli feel her sorrows and i honestly believe tat it come truly from her heart...
not only todae...when i was in thai...i had always been thinking abt snowie esp when i was in the car...

i reli miss snowie...now i reli regret tat i had not tresured the time i had wif her in the past...

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10:14:00 PM

YEAH!!! juz came back frm thai yesterdae...saw kelly poon at the airport...so cocky...yucks
aniway...getting busy the moment i step into s'pore (back frm thai)...after i arrived...i went back home for a bath and went straight to the music sch for the performimg grp practice...then i found out tat a lot of progarams are changed!!! argh!!!
waste my time learning those disney songs and oso finding those songs....
and now...i gt to learn a new song again...moreover is sth tat i've nv heard b4...die le...gt to be ready by next tue together wif valenti's dance...siao liao...juz started learning todae...
STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS
and together wif the hw assigned to mi for my music lessons (keyboard and vocal) and the sch's one....
OMG!!!
my progress slip is already full lo...can imagine how much izit??? die die muz do everything le lo...
stupid mi...tie myself down wif so many things when i can choose nt to haf them...
but i tink i won't regret wif wad i did...cuz i nv regret!!!

ya...tml i m having the leadership camp...dunno how will it be like...
and i went to watch ROMEO AND JULIET todae!!!
juz one word to describe SUPERB!!!

reli made mi envious of the dancers...being able to stand on the stage of esplanade theatre and dancing there...receiving applauses...
when can i be like them as well???*wondering*
even my sis said tat it was real real nice...now...can u imagine how gd izit???
i nearly had a standing ovation...haha

erm...nutcracker iz cuming up as well!!! i wanna watch leh...haiz...but no time...
it's by my idol leh...Jeffery Tan...applause**
he taught mi ballet b4 during my dance camp in SDT...he rocks...
SINGAPORE DANCE THEATRE* IMPERIAL RUSSIAN BALLET* JEFFERY TAN* U ALL RAWKS!!!
haha...kinda crazy todae...nv tot tat being overloaded will make sb crazy as well...
okie...late le...and i oni reach home at 12am...ya juz now...
*sign off

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12:34:00 AM

going to thailand tonight...
but i tink i'll be spending most of the time learning songs ba...
in preparation for the upcoming performance...
still cnt find one of the songs leh...
wish mi luck...

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1:28:00 PM

Yeah!!! some of the results are out!!! quite pleased wif myself...
despite the fact tat the papers are tough...i managed to score quite well for them!!!
(at least some beta than my expectations...)
i've gt As, Bs, and of cse Cs...Cs are my social studies and literature (combined humanities)
aiya...expected la...
anyway...everything is over...and results are already out...no point tinking over it...
it'll make my life miserable lo...lucky i m nt tat kind of person...hehex
fridae getting back my report cards...hmm...dunno wad'll be my class and level position...
erm...shouldn't be tat bad ba???
Whatever...

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3:40:00 PM

todae finally had my lessons...FINALLY!!!!
it was fun!!! i enjoyed myself...reli alot
i tink todae is reli the dae when i have reli enjoyed after the exams
went to the new school...although it's still rather empty...
it is still veri comfortable and very cozy...
:) todae when i was on my way back home...
i saw yvonne...reli shock!!!
anyway...i made up a decision todae...
i dunno whether i can manage it a not
esp next year is my O levels...
i tink i'll nt regret ba...since i am already managing my time quite well now already..
it's time for greater challenges...
looking forward to the practices cuming up!!!

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11:07:00 PM

endure!!! 1 more dae...exams will be gone...jia you!!!
tinking of where to go on fridae le...
can gif some suggestions???
aniway...i noe tat i'll need to reli relax myself after the exams...
cuz there has reli been lots of things stressing mi le...
erm...wad abt taking sisi to east coast for a stroll??
sounds great yah??
hehe...can tink abt it...ask sis to accompany mi ba!!!
sign off.

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3:34:00 PM

30/9/2005 - a dae never to be forgotten...
SNOWIE DIED!!! a memorable, grieving day in our family's history...
why muz this happen to us??? worse of all...i was the one who found tat snowie is dead...
todae...i cried almost from 4am to 1pm++
reli veri sad...on the verge of breaking down...
i reli dunno how long can i endure...how long can i stand tis pain in my heart...
todae...i heard frm my maid tat my mum cried...during the burial behind my dad's office...
i tink i would not go to the office anymore...
and my mum was telling my maid tat she's reli worried abt mi...even more than my sis...
cuz i am reli veri emotional...
i tink i'll be crying every night...
*why miracle did not happen tis time? i trusted so much in it...

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8:18:00 PM

todae was another bad dae for mi...sth drastic happened...
while i was on my way home (on the bus) i saw a missed call frm mummy on my phone...
i called back...to my horror...she said snowie is in the hospital!!!
i rushed there right away...and saw snowie lying on the operating bed...she's having her drip...
and she's bleeding a lot...reli a lot...
she vomitted blood...and her faeces contains mainly blood!!!
i nearely vomitted...snowie at tat point of time was half conscious...and she couldn't reli notice my presence...
i reli hope tat her report tml cld be veri positive...
i'll stop here for the dae...
going to the vet's now...

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6:25:00 PM

Last nite...i slept late...and when i was washing up in the washroom...i heard s car swerving...and it was reli a sharp swerve i heard...
reli frightened mi...i tot an accident took place...then i went to the window and looked out...but there was no car...and i oso saw a person from the next hse cuming out to see wad happened...
so scary...luckily nth happened...thank goodness...
recently...after the road near my hse is opened...there's always jam around here and the number of cars here oso increased...and every morning when i was walking to the bus stop....i always had some difficulties crossing the road...
and cuz of this...i had always been missing my bus...
sickening...
haiz...homework!!!! i'll stop here for the dae...stil gotta continue wif my never ending homework!!!

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11:26:00 AM

i had dance practice todae...i enjoyed most of it...i reli mean it
but...ryan wasn't happy wif us...as usual...
becuz of who??? some pple hor...reli cnt figure out wad they r tinking...
do they like dance??? i noe i love it...but wad abt the others???
they sae "yes" but do they reli mean it??? i find tat they r like us...the previous us...
always not daring enough to express themselves...r they shy???
but wad's there to be shy abt??? nth reli much todae wad...
oni gt padebure and sutunu todae wad...veri difficult meh???
most of them take small small steps...
WHY!!!!!! izit if they took a bigger step they will drop into a drain???
no right?
pple...wake up...ryan is nt going to take slow step everytime...
he's reali angry todae le...pls repent on ur mistakes...and practise wad he taught todae...
or else u'll reli lose tis good teacher i tell u...
maybe...u'll tink tat he's a deveil now...
but after u were onstage and performed...u'll noe...
wad he did is good for us...when u heard the applause frm the audience, u'll surely thank him for wad he had done...
dance is not as easy as u tink...it requires a lot of practices reli...
it's nt sth u'll have once u were born...
every great dancers will go thru a lot...many even had injuries...
or i wld sae...all dancers have injuries...
everytime when i do a split, juniors wld go..."WOW!!!"
but...u tink it's nt pain for mi???
of cse it is...i had been going thru tis everydae...if i had nt been practising split everydae,
do u tink i'll be able to do a split???
i tink nt even a banana split lo...
so pls...speak up!!!! ans the qns...
and everytime why izit the seniors doin the counting oni???
all juniors need to be spoon-feeded izit???
tink i m nt fierce enough...pls dun push mi to my limits...
i'll breakdown...if u gt any thing tat u wish to clarify...
u can always look for ryan...dun tink tat it is veri embarrassing...
pls lo...even mi myself...
i wld always look for ryan when i am uncertain abt certain moves...
i m sure all dancers have heard wad ryan sae todae right...
if u cnt meet his expectations...he'll throw u out of the club...
and one last thing to add...he reli meant it...
dun try his patience...

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10:14:00 PM

erm...came back frm m'sia on 11/9...quite a nice trip there except for the hw load...haiz
didn reli enjoyed lo...still need to bring my hw there to do...
but it's good to leave s'pore and go other ctries...can relax a bit...
but end-of-year examinations is around the corner le
might stress again...haiz...but its like jia chang bian fan to mi lo
tis fridae...there is tis dance performance by NUS...
mi wanna watch leh...but like nobody accompany mi there...sian...
cnt go again lo...have to miss it again...haiz
cuz if nobody goin wif mi...my mum sure won't allow one lo...
aiya!!!! so confusing...

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10:23:00 PM

WHY WHY WHY????????????
THE PERSON (nt to mention who) QUIT DANCE LE...BUT Y STILL PUT THE DANCE SYF PICTURE???
SINCE SHE DOESN'T LIKE MR RYAN, DANCE CLUB, Y MUZ SHE STILL PUT THE DANCE PICTURE???
WAD IS SHE TINKING???
I AM GOING BONKERS...
CNT TAKE IT LE...JUZ LET MI THROW MY TANTRUMS HERE BA...
SO SORI TO ALL THOSE WHO R READING MY BLOG NOW...
life is driving mi crazy...
juz to quote 1 sentence frm full hse...

recently...i've been tinking a lot....but i'll nt reveal wad i m tinking here
i feel so remorseful...to the dance club, to the seniors
i dare nt tell them the truth
but when the dae cums...i'll tell
seniors...so sori tat i'll have to keep the truth frm u all...
SORRY...

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9:13:00 PM

lyrics 4 "because of you"... ...
I will not make the same mistakes that you did I will not let myself Cause my heart so much misery I will not break the way you did,You fell so hardI've learned the hard way To never let it get that far Because of youI never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of youI learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt Because of youI find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me Because of youI am afraidI lose my way And it's not too long before you point it outI cannot cry Because you know that's weakness in your eyesI'm forced to fake A smile, a laugh everyday of my life My heart can't possibly break When it wasn't even whole to start with Because of youI never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of youI learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt Because of youI find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me Because of youI am afraidI watched you die I heard you cry every night in your sleepI was so young You should have known better than to lean on me You never thought of anyone else You just saw your pain And now I cry in the middle of the night For the same damn thing Because of youI never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of youI learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt Because of youI try my hardest just to forget everything Because of youI'm ashamed of my life because it's empty Because of youI am afraid Because of youBecause of you

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7:00:00 PM

todae was a bad dae 4 mi...everything were so bad...i cried in sch
now...i am listening to a song "because of you" by kelly clarkson...i tink tis song reli expresses my feelings inside mi now...
especially in the chorus part...
i dunno how shld i face the reality...i dun dare to face it...
but...i noe i'll have to face it one dae though...
my eyes were so puffy todae...yet...still have to take the class photo...
dun reli wish to tok todae...to my family or even other pple...
actually, i did not notice tis song "because of you" earlier...but after my sis asked mi to help her get the lyrics...i went to listen to tis song and realised tat it represented my feelings now...exactly...
after listening to tis song and lookin at the lyrics, i cried again...haiz...
dunno wad to do now...
i feel as though i am lost in the desert...stranded...

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6:43:00 PM

oh...it has been such a long time since i've updated my blog here....i tink sth wrong wif the internet connection lately....
thinking why i can cum online now??? ans: i am using my bro's com!!! haha...
so sian...now then i fing tat i cannot survive w/o internet....lolx
i did quite okie for my common test recently...except for my chemistry...so sad...
so far all As but juz becuz of tat chem....my results not nice le la....
so mani careless mistake while doing my chem paper....i cannot forgive myself for being so blur like a sotong!!!! if i had slept earlier the nite b4...i wouldn't have made those stupid mistake le lo...
still remember...during those days...i was studying studying and studying all nite!!!
but i am veri happy wif my math results....45/47!!!! good right????
haha...too happy le...sori if u find mi bhb...lolx

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5:48:00 PM

todae...my physics cher revealed a little to mi regarding my results...
i tink i gt more than 80%...haha
so good...i tink tis is my 1st time getting tis type of results for my physics...yipee!!!
todae the last dae of our common tests...yeah
reli a dae for celebration...mummy's b'dae cuming le...haven buy present leh...
on 8/8 i am going to have a presentation in front of the sch regarding our syf dance...
all the preparations and our dark ages...
have to prepare for the speech...so nervous...if u want mi to dance in front of them...i can
if u want mi to tok in front of them..its kinda difficult lor...but i'll juz try my best...
life is reli busy for mi tis year...gotta handle dance and school work...
its nice tat i m handling well...

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9:46:00 PM

wow...so many tests at one go...having a reli terrible headache tis few days...like my brain going to split le...
the chemistry exam todae was so tough!!! so weird of mi tat i actually still got the time to write my blog here althought i m having 3 papers tml...
tml will be the last dae of all the papers!!! finally!!! let mi juz endure for 1 more dae b4 i collapse...
i am going to relax myself tis weekend...YEAH!!! havimg a super long weekend...haha no need to see books and chers lo...hehe
can i dun go to sch on fridae??? i wanna skip lessons...but dun tink i'll dare to do tat lo...haha...lolx
JIA YOU BA!!!! Miracle.....

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5:04:00 PM

yesterdae was reli an exciting nite...the dance performance put up by various schools was reli fascinating!!!! the syf closing was so touching...esp during the finale...i miss it so much...
thinking back....few mths back, we were still practising so hard for the syf...putting in all our hearts and souls for the dance...(Bondage.Freedom)...juz hoping tat we can do our best in the dance and not letting ryan and ms chan down...
guess wad...during the finale...i actually teared!!! so weird of mi...?
NIGHTMARE: we lost our way while we were walking out of kallang theatre...we walked on the long stretch nicoll highway yesterdae....
the thing tat i was angry abt was...my dad kept calling mi asking mi why i haven reach home...since he's so anxious...he shld cum fetch mi right??? but instead...he said..."dunno how to take a taxi ah?" WAD AN IRONY!!!
of cse i noe how to take a taxi...but...the prob is..there wasn't any taxi available lo...moreover on the highway...who wld stop for u???
anyway...common test starting next week le...stress!!!

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8:49:00 AM

recently reli busy...haiz...tests are one after another.... so stressed....
tis saturdae has a packed schedule...have to reach Yishun JC by 7.30 am for the Math and Science competition!!!! tink i'll have to wake up at 6+....the competition ends at abt 1.30 pm.... after which gt to rush to LWS for vocal lessons and have to reach by 2pm.....then....is the keyboard lesson....having a 2 hours lesson....until 7 pm...then...going for dinner wif family....
WOW!!!! busy mi.....
the bio test todae reli veri chim lo....dun even noe wad is it abt!!!! sure fail one lo...
tis week i've gt lotsa homework....why teachers gif HW all at the same time???
i tink i'll have a breakdown one dae...it is a sure thing...
i dun tink my body can take it anymore...i am so stressed!!!! still gotta worry abt the dance thingy.....
i am having quite a lot competitions lo....stupid cher...everything oso choose mi as if i gt a lot of time to prepare lo....crazy!!!!
having Math and Science competition and the Math olympiad competition....
still gotta go for training every Wednesday....
i dun even have enough for my studies and all already!!!! why are u all torturing mi??? HATE IT!!!!
anyway....besides tat....Dodo is having the last injection tis Sundae.... she's recovering well...great performance!!!!!
another good news....i've gt FULL MARKS for my recent A math test!!!!! Haha!!!! lolx...

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6:13:00 PM

own design 

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9:49:00 AM

Dodo had the 2nd injection todae...i am veri delighted wif her progress...she is capable of walking now...i find her more and more adorable now...so cute!!!! Little cutie...haha
we might be quitting at LWS...cuz reli find tat we are wasting our time and $ over there...
my sis says she'll stop the keyboard lesson for some time 1st cuz of her national examination...good luck to her anyway...
i tink i'll con't to learn there for the time being ba...but reli busy recently...

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10:39:00 PM

dodo...reli hard on you le...veri painful right??? sori la...but pls recover quickly...cuz i dun want to see u having operation as it is reli painful and nt natural...
yesterday while giving u the tablets reli scared mi to death...almost choke and cannot breathe...
Dodo...i reli hope tat u can recover as fast as posible...seeing how u suffer reli hurts mi...my heart breaking le...
reli wish to see u run around again....
praying hard for you.....tink u can see it ba...
all of us are reli sad....so rest well now and dun worsen ur injury again k???
i noe u want to play aroung wif sisi and snowie but u hav to wait till u recover k...so pls be patient...all of us are wif u k?

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2:35:00 PM

sch reopens le...sianz!!! have to reli be in the schooling mood now liao....
but reli happy cuz i am 3rd in level for my Additional Math in the Mid-yr examinations...
so happy!!! we've oso gotten back our DVD for our SYF...so funny when i watched it lor....but love it!!!
our seniors have all stepped down...so sad!!!! now will be our turn to take charge liao...stress ah!!!!
but we can definately do it...right??? yup we can do it!!!! haha
amos won in the teenage icon....argh!!! too bad meryl didn win...i tot she wld win one leh...
maybe is becuz of the stress ba....

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10:07:00 PM

had talent search round 1 todae..... i was veri nervous!!!! inside was so cold...made mi real stiff lor...argh!!!!
i dun tink i'll be able to make it le...however i've tried my best and reli enjoyed the best of it...
great experience....results are not out yet...eager to noe the results soon....
able or not able to enter round two doesn't reli matter now le....but i feel i've let KL down...sori!!!
but thru tis Talent Search..i saw the support of my friends and family members around me...
they reli cared for mi!!!! so blessed...
aniway...i would like to thanx everybody for their care and concern thru my entry here....THANK YOU!!!!!
i've put in all my efforts!!!! worth it...
going to help Boys' Brigade dance again...2 weeks to practise when sch reopens.....3rd week will be the actually performance....haven promise my cher whether to participate or not...
have to noe whether i've entered round 2 or not b4 i can reply her...
reli a long entry here......
our dance club will be having reli a lot of programs cuming up in the later part of the year....hahas!!!!

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10:24:00 PM

tml will be the dae for talent search "round 1"....
very stress and scared now....how??? i didn have tis feeling at first but now i reli feel tensed up...
dunno how i'll perform tml....pressure!!!!
alone tml...family going to malaysia tml....independent dae for me...
i reli wish tat there is a person i can tok to now...
will miracle exist??? the thing i believe in...

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9:27:00 PM

the training i attended recently every day reli helped me a lot...
thanx kok leong...hehe
tis sat will be the actual thing...my sis say she not going to LWS tis sat...
so i'll be alone singing...dun even have support frm her....she's nt going!!!
dunno sebastain is havin wad time slot....hope he is havin the same time slot as mi....at least gt a companion....haha...
juz enjoy the talent saerch ba....great experience...dunno who will be the judges...

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10:06:00 PM

i reli veri worried and anxious now.....hands are trembling...
the pple frm LWSSOM juz called and told me tat the talent search is on this saturday.....(25/6/05) haven even prepared and train for it!!!!
HOW??? wad am i goin to do....???
so scared....waiting for kok leong to call back now....will he have time to train mi???
the best thing abt it is...i am onli left wif 4 days....
i am reli lost...

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5:50:00 PM

haha...juz now inside the car...three of us became korean siao again...we began saying dunno wad kinda korean....we named it the "k" language....so funny...
and my mum says: pls dun say tis in front of korean pple...lolx
we went to seoul garden juz now wif granny....many funny things happened...
i'll end here...**

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10:59:00 PM

omg!!! i cut my hair todae...so unbelieveable...i dun even noe who i am....
i dun reli like it...cuz it's so weird....the fringe is like dunno wad lo...
haiz....depressed...
for the talent search...i've chosen an eng song by coco lee....however...it seems veri difficult....shld i change the song...or practice it more will do the job???
but i tink if i can do tat well...it is reli quite high chance lo.....haha...
erm...maybe i dreaming again...lolx
dun care le la...i tink i'll juz stick to tat song 1st...
but i reli veri happi cuz my sis say she oso going to join....YEAH!!!

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1:38:00 AM

Haha...kok leong treated us for lunch todae at sushi tei...he owned us tat...
wow it was fun.... he todae little bit crazy lo...drove around the circle and making mi dizzy...i was tinking will he carry on until 4.30??? haha...lolx...if he reli did....i wld have vomitted....haha
he ate alot todae lo...wonder wad his stomach is made up of??? rubber??? lolx
after our lunch...he drove around the area...
at last he decided to cum our hse 4 sum chit-chatting haha.....
tml gt keyborad lesson and practical lesson...haha
so excited taking back my cd tml....oh ya...juz remember have to help sebastian take his cd oso...haha...omg...we'll have to see tat new classmate again....
totally not used to it lo....haiz...

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12:22:00 AM

wad has got into both of them todae.... both of them seemed like i owned them $ and are showing their anger on mi....
wad happened todae....so vexed!!!!!
did i do sth wrong??? i doubt so...but reli it's not my fault lo......i onli said wad i felt ma.... it is reli her fault and its reli veri evil to laugh when pple falls.....
i tink pple shld give a thought for others and not be so insensitive abt pple's ffeling...[give a thought abt it ba]

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9:18:00 PM

papa is so generous sia.....he bought my sis and i an mp3 each....which cost $569 each.....haha....
he oso bought himself a laptop yesterdae.....he wanted us to teach him the usuage of computer...it was so fun seeing him using the com...haha...
he is currently using the laptop to store in all the data of the machines and the prices of the transportation for those m/c....
went to the office todae....quite busy....however...it was fun...
having tuition later.....

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5:05:00 PM

i reli feel veri stupid todae.....at LWS and at his hse...
we waited or rather hided outside his hse todae cuz we want to waste our time outside 1st....we were hidding behind the tree and tot tat we were safe...
however...his bro suddenly came out....caught us...and we were spotted...
on top of tat...we waited in his hse for exactly 45 minutes...and my sis cannot take it and went off....so coolz...
he said he'll give us 2 free lessons to make up for tat....
at LWS...we had a new classmate todae....however we feel veri weird and not used to it...he seems to be toooo polite liao until we cannot get use to it....
veri weird leh...havin a person suddenly popping out in the class...
argh...everything is so weird

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11:58:00 PM

i am reli confused and blur now...help....
i feel like i'm being isolated....but am i???
shld i join the competition??? after my sis said tat she might not be joining....i reli felt lyke giving up hope....dun i continue or shld i juz give up???
why muz she do tis??? such a disappointment... she still says tat we r alwaes twins and together....all craps lor....
i tot we shld go thru everything together?
aiya...reli veri confused now leh...dun noe wad to do for the moment...
juz hopes tat things turn out well lo....

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10:45:00 PM

i went to my dad's place to work todae....however onli half dae....
i finished my job in 4 hours time my mum said tat it was fast....however i tot it was pretty slow lo.....
HAHA!!!!! i bought a new phone todae.....but still not veri sure how to use it....figure it later....
nth happened much in the office excapt tat it was relli cold 4 mi....
going to sch tm for geog extra lesson....mapwork....tink it'll be fun ba....ms suan's lesson is alwaes fun except when it cums to tests or exams.....haha....
lookin forward to meet my friends tml.....

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4:37:00 PM

we watched the movie, my boyfriend is type B, todae....
it was reli reli veri nice...those haven watch it muz go and watch....or else u'll regret it...
it was veri funny and romantic man...i almost cried in the cinema...cuz the story was too unbelivable to be true...
Does destiny reli exist in tis busy world??? but i do believe in tat...
when the guy sang for the gal in the movie...i felt tat it was so romantic....
ya...todae my sis, bro and i went shopping together...our legs almost broke...and our wallets alreadi gt hole liao...haha...all of us ar penniless...so poor thing..hehe...
reli muz watch the korean movie hor....

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10:17:00 PM

eh...i forgot to say....
i passed my singing practical exams le....haha
i gt 88% but it is onli a merit i tink....
the passing rate is so high lo.....75% is onli a juz pass rate....
but i gt the highest in tat class ba....haha
but another nightmare cuming....i gt to face another music exam le....theory exam...
watching movie todae....
btw...i've decided to participate in the Talent Search conducted by LWSSOM which is onli for the students in LWSSOM....
i am considering whether a not to help my cher perform in the korean song....to play and sing at the same time....haha...it'll be at Jurong East ba???

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10:32:00 AM

todae reli fun man!!!! however, was quite depressed or rather sian during keyboard lesson todae....partially because i was influenced by my sister ba.....
we had recorded our own song or rather our exam song in the studio... reli fun and excited lor....
i feel lyke an artist leh...haha okie i stop dreaming le...
my sis and i were writing testimonial for each other juz now...so funny....i send her abt 20+ ba...
she too send mi around 20+ but both of us send craps lo....haha...
enjoy it man!!! but still dun noe why i feel so stress and unhappy at his hse todae leh....
i hate the crowd forming at my hse recently... everybody slept late....my dad slept at 3am yesterday reli hard on him le....
i cut my hand yesterday while paring the skin of mango haha..... gastric acted up again today...(sob)...but used to it le la....nvm...

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11:42:00 PM

todae nth special happened to me.... i woke up at 5+ todae....so sian....haiz...
they goin for the camp todae so i stayed at home lor.... got an MC so tat i can skip sch...haha
boring...

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4:35:00 PM

wow!!! fantastic dae..... so happi and sad todae......
happi becuz: the competition todae was so fun although it was veri freezing cold.... haha..it seems lyke most of the comments is frm kok leong but of course, meryl did gave comments too....
argh....he sabotage me todae leh.... i almost had to play the song wei yi in front of the pple...luckily i got away...haha
but oso sad cuz.... my shoes were stolen!!!! don noe which stupid person so crazy.... steal pple's shoes.... stupid, stupid, stupid...
BUT luckily... he was kind enough to give mi a trip home....haha

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6:11:00 PM

should i celebrate??? i scored veri well for my e-math and a-math!!! i gt more than 90% for both...haha
dun noe why my math improved drastically in a few mths time...so happi
i gt 3 A1, 1 A2, and 2 B3 so far.... is tis good??? ok la...contented le
I tink i'd beta not expect too much 4 myself.... however i'm veri happi todae
tml is the actual dae for the singing competition le....wow!!!! veri excited sia.....
lookin forward to the competition and the rest of my results.... hope tat i can do well for everything....haha (am i too greedy???)

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5:10:00 PM

todae mi and my family went to many places to look 4 tis particular medicine 4 my dad...
we went to pharmacies and hospital to look 4 tis medicine...so tired
we went to tan tock seng hospital...asked the sercurity where is the pharmacy and he directed us to B1...we went there and later found out it was the emergency phamacy...
worse still...i later found out tat there is tis montuary at tat level too...and my sis was veri "brave" (she still don noe tat) she said: cum wif mi...
and i held my mum back and ask her not to follow... my sis sensed sth wrong and asked me wad happened and i pointed to the board tat directs us... she still don noe....
then i said it was a place to put the dead and she came running towards us.... so funny and scary...
as we were leaving, a man was pushed out of nowhere, and it reli scares us...all of us went running towards the lift including my bro...(luckily the person is not a dead 1)
Another incident was: todae we were goin for our breakfast as ususal... sth funni happened...
my bro was playing his game so peacefully.... later when we were abt to reach, my bro suddenly exclaimed...opps!!! i forgot ot wear my shoes...and we saw tat he onli wore a pair of socks...so funny lor
then when we reached...my mum bought him a pair of slippers... veri funni incident...this is the 1st time i see pple 4get to wear shoes 1
another incident: sorri i can't tell cuz its kinda secret ba

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11:50:00 PM

i finally noe the meaning of "so near, yet so far" le.... many things in this world is lyke tis quote... everyting appears to be veri near however they are beyond ur reach...argh...confusing...
not all things in tis world is within our control...don u agree?
aniway...havin vocal and keyboard lessons tml... i have been baking cookies todae for abt 5 hours ba... after which i have been reading comics and watching television...so boring staying at home
finally can go out tml... yeah!!!!
how cum lately everybody seems so busy... wondering wad r they busy over???
i want to watch the movie "Monster-in-law" it soungs so funny (shl be a comedy ba???)
it has been a long time since i've reli laughed...

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9:40:00 PM

FINALLY...the stupid exams are cuming to an end..... i love tis type of feeling (freedom)
but i feel sort of weird... the daes b4, the 1st thing i did was to flip open my book and read on and on and on (don even care when the building collapse)....
but now, i don have to revise liao... gt a feeling of....um.... lost maybe...
good/ bad???? don noe how to differentiate...argh don care le la
aniway...i am goin to bake cookies tml...yipee!!!! i luv to bake cookies..... after i baked them i am goin to give it to sb whom i've own him the cookies for i tink abt 3 mths ba...haha... oso to my friends and others ba...
Fri: Bake cookies and accompany mum to buy clothes for the wedding dinner
Sat: Vocal theory lessons and keyboard lesson (opps.... the passing notes...die le...if i don master it by sat, i tink i'l be killed by him ba)
Sun: Family dae (poor papa...leg don noe when will recover)
Mon: Accompany mum to eat smoothie an Millenia walk, buy handphone, make new contact lenses
Tue: back to sch for some of the results...(scared)
"SO PACKED SCHEDULE"

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10:45:00 PM

Wah!!! todae the chem and lit paper almost got my hand broken... 2 essay qns 4 lit and 3 essay qns 4 chem.... soo long.... both papers are quite difficult... many of my friends r complaining le...
todae sth crop up during the chem exams.... our class got a short of 8 qns paper... the chers say the counted wrongly...haha...so funny...lolx...this resulted in later dismissal for our class....
in addition to the late dismissal, the inconsiderate pple frm other classes still kept making noises outside our class... i was so irritated by their doings.... intolerable.... childish act...
Well...as 4 the lit paper....1 qns was taken out frm the paper.... it was supposed to be sth to be happy abt...however, the qns tat the cher took out... i had already done it...in the other words, he took it out after i just finished tat particular qns... "flame is within mi" (haha)
i jus feel sth veri funny abt mi... i seem to do beta in my additional math as compared to my elementary math...(why is tis so?)
even my tutor agrees tat i do beta in my a math.... i siao le la...aiya don care liao... jus do moi best can le...

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12:49:00 AM

yeah i luv NZ...unforgetable experience 

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10:33:00 PM

wow!!! it has been a long time since i've updated my blog.... reli veri busy lately.... the mid-yr exams are driving mi crazy.... so stressed!!!! I HATE EXAMS!!!!!!
i wonder why teachers still give us class tests when we are havin the exams....? are they out of their mind?! or are they givin' us the tests just to add on to our stress????
CRAZY TEACHERS!!!!!
term 3 is starting at LWSSOM.... which oso means tat we will be having another practical & theory exams for the end of term 2.... wah... 1 after another.... luckily the keyboard lessons don have exams.... or else i tink i'll reli kill the teacher...lolx
don have keyboard lesson todae.... so sianz....
juz bought my mum a pendant for mother's dae (shared by my sis and mi)... reli broke liao lor.... it cost abt $299.... i don even dare to buy so expensive things lor.... aiya but nvm lah...once in a yr onli ma... actually we havin the keyboard lessons tml but due to the occasion tml...we cancelled it..... haiz...
i copied 214 math qns for my sis to do.... she reli hated mi man.... but cannot blame mi.... it is our keyboard cher, her tutor, asked mi to do one....sori lor...aniway she didn't even do it lor....i spent a lot of time and effort picking out the qns and copying it out 4 her 1 lor....sick...haiz....

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10:15:00 AM

felt so great todae..... congrats frm my friends, teachers and my principal..... finally shown my parents wad i am doin in sch for the past few weeks and the cause of all my bruises.... haha..... my dad and mum were veri surpportive and my principal oso congratulated them... my sis oso sy that she lyked our dance veri much and say tat we r veri artistic and veri modern.....so...happi this is i tink the 1st time she's sayin tis ba? reli veri happi when pple cuming up saying congrats to u...and reli feel lyke we've acheived sth lor....especially when pple say they'll regret if they didn get a chance to watch us perform... and i tink we're goin to have fans ba????
am i day-dreaming???? haha...lolx...i little bit siao liao... tis is wad my parents and friends say of mi todae oso.... i tink i am hyper-active todae i oso don noe why.....
ok todae till here....... gtg....

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1:00:00 PM

YEAH !!! goin to perform tml again.... saw the dance photos todae.... look so professional...we look as if we r professional dancers sia....
can't believe it man.... luv it sooo much...... reli got da feel in those pics leh... those pic don look lyke us lorhz....still cannot believe it
aniway we havin a celebration tml at 5.30pm!!!! singing competition postponed.... and he'll be going to make it for the judging thingy....
don noe howda describe my feelings now..... i think i'll have a sleepless nite again lor....
(la4) my own code.... don try to break it....haha!!!!
sry i little bit ding dong todae.....
Oh Ya!!! in the midst of composing a song lately....so...don disturb mi hor!!!

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8:15:00 AM

yeah finally sick-free...... without an injection... i think i am still more comfortable seeing my family doctor to other doctors... onli he got the right diagnostic of my prob... applause!!!!
free so elighted now!!! no need to face all the doctors but still have to finish the antibiotic course... but it isn't a prob at all
like wad my cher say... "injection is better than sick...honest"
i tink frm now on i must not be sick again because it will be veri terrible if i get sick...
jus lyke my cher who does not get sick always but if once he is sick, it will be veri terrible tat kind

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10:17:00 AM

wah..... saw the third doctor already within this week... the doctor reli don noe wad he is doin......
he said i got flu but no running nose and consist of sore throat and cough.....
i got fever and he say i don have fever and i have to ask him for medicine for my fever...siao right? i hate doctors in those 24 hours clinic... they simply worsened the condition of their patients.... last time i saw a doctor oso in those 24 hour clinic... he gave mi an injection lor..... tat time i had an allergy and my eyes were swollen and he gave mi an injection saying tat it wld reduce the sore but the next dae.... itbecame more swollen then ever.... reli hated tat doctor...
reli feels horrible being ill.... how can i recover??????

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12:05:00 AM

wah got a fever last nite so unbearable..... 38.2degree celsius
i did not go the sch todae but will be goin at 1 cuz of the make-up course....
my voice sounds rather weird... i wonder will it recover by Sat??? still got vocal and keyboard lesson... if haven recover... i chia lat liao
any ways to bring back my voice???? help miii.......

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1:24:00 AM

yeah!!! i finished my 2.4km run todae (1 of my greatest nightmares) but sore throat still persist.... umm.... 4th day liao but seems to be getting beta
todae run until i am a little bit out of breath and cough.... flu seems to be cuming......
haiz.... feel so sick lately after the dance competition is over i don feel good w/o dancing feel so odd.... sickness is one after another .....
tml got 2 tests social studies(1 of my least favourite subj.) and chem...(which was actually to be done todae)
i hate tests!!!!!!
wonder...... will i recover by Sat? i want to sing.....
pls let me to disease, bacteria, ill-free...pls...pls...pls

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1:28:00 PM

i am preparing to do up the dance notice board with dancers aka friends... haha... so excited to put up all the scary photos ...... i tink pple passing by will be shocked to see those photos ba???
YEAH!!!!! having a stage make-up course tis friday.... sounds exciting.... the person is heard to be frm SDT(one of my dreams)...
kk... i'll tok till here... gonna go slp liao.....tired (yawn...)

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1:39:00 AM

suffering frm a severe sore throat.... haiz so painful...... i had medicine for a few daes but they were all my mum's and the sore wasn't getting ani beta so i saw a doctor todae......
he said i got a severe sore throat and was worse than my brother's
umm.... maybe i passed the sore throat to him ba...(so sori) he is running a fever and headache now.... but got an mc
the lozenges the doctor gave reli numb my throat and tongue it wasn nice......
feel sooooo horrible man.......

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12:37:00 PM

have to rush my hw again.... i owe my teachers in all 10 hw aiya so chia lat. this result because of my missing of lessons
i did my hw until 1 am last nite... sooo.... tired (yawn.....)
i hate literature!!!!! among all the hw i hate literature most.... ahhhhhh.... so boring doin subject i don lyke!!!!

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8:20:00 AM

todae was so fun... i managed to complete the whole song of the keyboard lesson and he said that we would be able to start a new song next week!!!! Wei Yi (by lee hom) tis is so fast man..... i cannot believe it..... i almost got slapped by my sis (haha) i was saying everywhere i go tat we got a gold and she seems intolerable of my excitement...... tis gold 'allowed' mi to wake up at 5 am unable to slp.....

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2:30:00 PM

hey... vocal and keyboard lesson tml i hope i won't go gonecase and be lyke a dingdong.... soooooo happy tml i sure laugh all the way frm lwssom to his hse one lor reli veri happy todae....

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12:27:00 PM

YEAH !!!! we got a gold for SYF.... although the process of the competition is more important than the result, we are still veri elated as it is a bonus to us.... and promised by ryan and ma chan, we'll be treated to Crystal Jade !!!! Yipeeeeeeeeeeeee........ love tis feeling man.... i had happy tears todae lehz.... i tink i'll gonna have tis high feeling 4 a veri veri long time liao.... lolx...
GOLD !!! GOLD !!! GOLD !!! GOLD !!! GOLD !!!

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12:13:00 PM

yesterdae was our actual SYF competition at Kallang Theatre. it was sooooo.. fun and exciting finally our hardwork has paid off. for the past 2 to 3 mths we have been practising and practising causing lotsa injuries but it is all worth it. and was indeed a great performance of my lifetime from nth to sth . a gold or not, doesn't reli matters now liao wad best is we gained a lot from this dance and oso this instructor, ryan. he inspired us scolded us and to tell the truth i had this feelings for a few times tat he is goin to give up on us and juz finish the choreograph and leave luckily he did not or else we would have this blame on ourselves. another impt person was our dear in-charge, ms chan. she seems to be the "backstage" person. no one seems to appreciate her kindness or rather her hardwork. i can see tat for this SYF thingy she has been reli under lotsa stress of juz to tell her everyting is over and relax liao..... the most memorable thing was after the competition i cried and wad the funniest thing is, our tears r red due to the make-up we had on our face and we jump and sing all the way frm kallang theatre back to sch (we even sang our sch song) haha....
THE MOST MEMORABLE DAY OF MY LIFE....... 14 APRIL 2005

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